Selfishness of mine!!

It been like dead 4 2 to 3 days??
I mean my bloggy.
Yeah!! Its gonna b dead if i dun post osmething today.
hahax.. was veri busy 4 the past few days,
din get a chance to use com.
haiz...
well, had a big fight wif bro n mummy ystd,
It was whn bro teacher called frm the sch,
and this teacher ask 4 my mummy,
n i told the teacher:"my mum is nt free at the moment,
I'm his sister, how cn i help u??"
His teacher said:oh? ok, den u seen his results??
I said:Yeah! Seen alrdy!
den the teacher said:oh ok! Aft looking at the results, wat r ur thoughts??
I tio stunned awhile,
den i continue to talk.
I said:perhaps u cn call my dad n check wif him??
his teacher:ok! Cn i call him nw??
i said:ok sure! I think he is free to pick up ur call.
Den kuped phone.
Went to hava shower aft that,
heard fmr my bro that dad is looking 4 mii,
so aft showering,
give him a call,
n he started to nagggggggggggggggggggg non-stop,
one thing he ask mii to do,
tell bro n ask him to stop his computer habits n start to revise work.
So i started to scold him everything that i cn.
Suddenly mummy shouted at mii "Have u had enough?"
I shouted back :if its wasn't for daddy that ask mii to nag him, i wouldn't do so!! PLus u think i like scolding him n naggging at him?? I myself oso sick n tired of these things!!! I'm doing this is becos daddy ask mii to do so!! I was just helping to scold bro onli!!!
Instead mummy got reali angry n wanted to throw thw shirt hangers at mii,
i went into my room!
Was crying inside the room 4 1/2 an hour,
bt whn i came out to put my stuffs,
i saw mummy sitting dwn there washing the clothes n keep crying!!!
That time i knew that i was wrong in scolding her,
i felt guilty until i dun even dare to face her! :'(
Went back to my rm again,
reflect on the things i have done is nt right!
Plus she is my mummy leh, the one who has brought mii up 4 soooooooooooo
many yrs yet i scold her!
I was thinking the past where i was young as a child or i'm even a baby,
my mum took special care of mii n gave mii everything i nid, even nw she still gives mii $$$ whn i do nt have enough $$$ to eat or somthing n all the things she did 4 mii.
In fact, she sew a t-shirt 4 mii few days ago whn i'm nt at hme,
cos she saw my t-shirt gt a hole there.
Few mins ltr, i came out of my rm n i went to apologise to her,
she said:Dun say it anymore!!
n she kept crying n crying!!
Even mii oso keep crying becos of the selfishness mistake that i've made,
makes my mum feel hurt. ):

To mummy,
i knw u may nt be looking at these nw,
bt i hope u would take a look at this letter dedicated to u whn u have the time.
i reali reali was in the wrong ystd,
n i had reflected on myself le.
I nt purposely wanted to scold u de,
is becos i'm helping dad to scold bro nt just 4 fun,
is for his own good!
Cos i knw dad is getting on in yrs,
dun have the energy to scold bro n he has high blood pressure,
so as a daughter of his,
i scolded bro,
n during the scolding u came in n ask mii to stop it,
bt i din listen,
in fact i scolded u back,
i was in the wrong of scolding u bt u shouldn't have came in whn i was scolding bro,
i scolded u back is becos i've said it in a harsh anger cos i was veri veri angry wif bro.
U give mii everything i nid including $$$,
u sew my shirt 4 mii even if there is a hole in it,
u buy dinner n do housework for the family n etc....
in fact, u brought mii n bro up wif lots of suffering,
i feel bad n guilty throughout the night,
n i reali reali was in the wrong,
I feel apologetic abt this matter.
I wanted to say SORRY 2 u,
i reali hope that u will forgive mii 4 my selfishness mistake of mine!
i cried throughout then night whnever i think of u,
i knw u talked to mii this morning,
bt still i think u haven forgive mii....
nvm....
Bt i feel grateful towards u who have brought mii up wif special care.
all these things i cant make it up to u,
bt one thing that i must let u knw is
In my heart, you're the best mummy i've ever had!
even though u still would ignore mii n scold mii.
Once again i'm SORRY!!! :'(